Lonely Depression

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Poem by me

Dreamless

Sucked down the drain
wringed out like a rag
thrown away
into the trash
buried under discarded
memories and dreams

I run to get away from
pills beyond pills
with empty promises of redemption
hidden in my skin
I lie I try I die inside

no smiles
twisted
crushed days, stolen wishes
my heart dreams of escape
the pain drips out of my soul
help it screams
but i'm too empty to answer

I dissipate into
a crumpeled ball on the floor
left to crawl out of nightmares
calling out your name
you don't listen

I try to get up
will myself to go on
then
I see your face
I see your dreams
I see my void, my black soul
you will do better without me
so I fall
don't catch me   

Time Flies Friday I

Time Flies Fridays… is a weekly meme where I post about a children's fiction book that I loved as a child. Hosted By- Passion for Novels.

This week is my first week so I will say that the best book that I ever loved as a child was...

It's a children's story that is used to teach children the value of optimism and hard work. Some critics would contend that the book is a metaphor for the American Dream.

I loved this book because when I was a kid I was always repeating things and the train repeated over and over, "I think I can, I think I can." so of course I would always say that too. It wasn't until I was babysitting last week that I came across the book and realized the true meaning of it. The funny thing is I am still repeating it.

I think I can. I think I can.

Babe In Boyland By Jody Gehrman Book Review

When high school junior Natalie - or Dr. Aphrodite, as she calls herself when writing the relationship column for her school paper - is accused of knowing nothing about guys and giving girls bad relationship advice, she decides to investigate what guys really think and want. But the guys in her class won't give her straight or serious answers. The only solution? Disguising herself as a guy and spending a week at Underwood Academy, the private all-boy boarding school in town. There she learns a lot about guys and girls in ways she never expected - especially when she falls for her dreamy roommate, Emilio. How can she show him she likes him without blowing her cover?

~Haunted Rose's Review~

O.K. First off this cover is one of the most eye catching I have ever seen. I know this is judging a book by its cover but I can't help but think this book is going to be great. I took one look at this book and was like this just screams teenager. It's the perfect example of a book anyone would like to read. I know there are people out there who are a little tired of the paranormal well this book is a comical, romance, adventure book with no vampires what so ever. :) I laughed through out the whole book and the librarian shushed me several times. I love how brave and out there Natalie is. She isn't afraid to do the impossible or put herself in a situation most girls would laugh at. She is uplifting, halarious, and down right sexy. Even if she cuts her hair off like a boys and uses imaginary stubble, she is still quite attractive. I have to say I am very sorry for poor Emilio stuck with her. I think she might be alittle too adventurous for that hombre. Not only is this a funny realistic read it also gives you a life lesson that you will just have to figure out yourself.

3 words. Get it now.

I give it 5 out of 5 Haunted Roses

Waiting On Wednesday I

Waiting On Wednesdays… is a weekly meme where I post about the latest books I am waiting to get or be released. Hosted By- Breaking The Spine.

This week I have won a few books and I am anxiously awaiting them in the mail. Here are 3 that are on the way.

Daimon (Covenant 0.5)

By- Jennifer L Armentrout

For three years, Alexandria has lived among mortals—pretending to be like them and trying to forget the duty she'd been trained to fulfill as a child of a mortal and a demigod. At seventeen, she's pretty much accepted that she's a freak by mortal standards... and that she'll never be prepared for that duty.
According to her mother, that’s a good thing.
But as every descendant of the gods knows, Fate has a way of rearing her ugly head. A horrifying attack forces Alex to flee Miami and try to find her way back to the very place her mother had warned her she should never return—the Covenant. Every step that brings her closer to safety is one more step toward death… because she's being hunted by the very creatures she'd once trained to kill.
The daimons have found her.

Half-Blood (Covenant 1)

By- Jennifer L Armentrout

The Hematoi descend from the unions of gods and mortals, and the children of two Hematoi-pure-bloods-have godlike powers. Children of Hematoi and mortals-well, not so much. Half-bloods only have two options: become trained Sentinels who hunt and kill daimons or become servants in the homes of the pures.Seventeen-year-old Alexandria would rather risk her life fighting than waste it scrubbing toilets, but she may end up slumming it anyway. There are several rules that students at the Covenant must follow. Alex has problems with them all, but especially rule #1:Relationships between pures and halfs are forbidden.Unfortunately, she's crushing hard on the totally hot pure-blood Aiden. But falling for Aiden isn't her biggest problem--staying alive long enough to graduate the Covenant and become a Sentinel is. If she fails in her duty, she faces a future worse than death or slavery: being turned into a daimon, and being hunted by Aiden. And that would kind of suck.

Savor (Warm Delicacy 1)

By- Megan Duncan

When Claire Miller turned eighteen all she wanted to do was celebrate her birthday, but after a night on the town with her best friend she awakes to a visitor she never expected. The rulers of her region, a vampire royal family, have chosen her to be turned as their new heir and vampire princess. Claire quickly discovers the royal family is not what they seem and that she has secrets in her past, she never knew existed.

Teaser Tuesday I

TEASER TUESDAYS… is a weekly meme where you share two (2) “teaser” sentences from your current read to try to entice others to want to seek it out. Hosted By-Should Be Reading.

I chose Babe in Boyland By Jody Gehrman because I won it in a giveaway and I recently got my mail and already started reading it.

When high school junior Natalie - or Dr. Aphrodite, as she calls herself when writing the relationship column for her school paper - is accused of knowing nothing about guys and giving girls bad relationship advice, she decides to investigate what guys really think and want. But the guys in her class won't give her straight or serious answers. The only solution? Disguising herself as a guy and spending a week at Underwood Academy, the private all-boy boarding school in town. There she learns a lot about guys and girls in ways she never expected - especially when she falls for her dreamy roommate, Emilio. How can she show him she likes him without blowing her cover?

Chapter 3 - Page 41

"This party was turning out to be the turd-encrusted cherry on top of my shit-shake of a day."

Chapter 15 - Page 190

"She's got this weird fascination..."

"Awesome"

"With flatulence."

"Farting?"

"Uh-huh. Totally turns her on."

"You expect me to believe she likes gas?"

Seriously Read this book!

Angel Burn By L.A. Weatherly Book Review

Willow knows she’s different from other girls, and not just because she loves tinkering with cars. Willow has a gift. She can look into the future and know people’s dreams and hopes, their sorrows and regrets, just by touching them. She has no idea where this power comes from. But the assassin, Alex, does. Gorgeous, mysterious Alex knows more about Willow than Willow herself. He knows that her powers link to dark and dangerous forces, and that he’s one of the few humans left who can fight them. When Alex finds himself falling in love with his sworn enemy, he discovers that nothing is as it seems, least of all good and evil. In the first book in an action-packed, romantic trilogy, L..A. Weatherly sends readers on a thrill-ride of a road trip - and depicts the human race at the brink of a future as catastrophic as it is deceptively beautiful.

They’re out for your soul . . . and they don’t have heaven in mind.

~Haunted Rose's Review~

When I first read the summary of the book I thought wow something different. I have never read a book that actually made angels evil and even had angel hunters. In the beginning I read the book fast because I was really fascinated and I wanted to know more. It was the end that really set me off. I felt like the love between Alex and Willow was too easy and unrealistic. It was a slow read towards the end because I got bored. It made me mad because the whole thing is like angel fighting action packed and then it stops so Willow and Alex can have alone time in some mountains for like 5 chapters. I was really glad that Willow stormed out to save the world and Alex tried to stop her. I think the very end was perfect. It left room for more books and I never saw it coming. Angel Burn makes me want to read the second one but it really isn't at the top of my list.

I give it 3 out of 5 Haunted Roses

Boxed Memories



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Poem by me.



After last night, It's hard to breathe.

I keep thinking I lost a part of myself.

I stare into nothing, looking, searching,

and I'm not even sure what for.

I rewrap the boxes of memories in my brain,

so that they never escape.

I try to put you in a box. I try to forget.

I stuff you in but you won't fit.

Is this my fault? Was I trying too hard?

I can't even remember why you were worth the crying.

I remember you letting go of my hand.

I remember my best friend wiping away wasted tears,

in the nastiest bathroom I have ever seen

I remember sleeping with a metal flashlight that doesn't even work.

Cold hard metal against my skin comforts me.

Then I remember I don't need anybody.

I don't need anybody to hold me.

I don't need anybody to be my shoulder to cry on.

All I need is myself,

and my giant boxes all packed up.

I found a bigger box

and your in it now.

I moved on.

Moonlit Eyes

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Poem by me

Moonlit eyes

watching,

illuminating me

chaotic sparkle swirl

in my mind

Searching into my soul

brown like

the shade

of an old

willow tree

Hypnotizing

It's hard

to think.

It's hard to

understand.

How?

moonlit strolls

looking for answers

to forgotten

questions

And I think...

but when I look

into those

moonlit eyes

I know

Nothing can go wrong

and all the sudden

nothing matters

but those moonlit eyes

soul searching

Between us.

Silver Shards

 



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Poem by me



The mirror
the one I stand in front of
every morning
hung on my wall.

I Look in
to see my reflection
all the time.
Its all a lie.

I don't see what you see.
I see a girl so sick,
Shes broken not the mirror.
theres still a silver shard.

Hanging from where
I punched it.
knuckles bleed
the pain isn't so bad.

I pick a silver shard
off my carpeted floor.
cracked along the middle.
One side is red.

The other is silver.
Shards are
everywhere now.
So sharp.

Lots of silver shards.
My own fasination.
Something so dangerous
to look at

but to me

 okay to touch.

Silver shards.

Puppet Girl

Ms. Puppet on strings

that is what they call me

I'm a dummy

I'm a toy

I'm a fool-hearted ploy

Used to distract the ablivious

here for the show

I'm a fake

I'm a lie

I'm a puppet used to try

Laugh the money out of pockets

pretend that I am real

I'm a person

I'm a doll

I'm used and when I fall

It never stings

Until you pull my strings

Mr. Selective Hearing

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Poem by me

Listen Hard

to hear the drips

of the blood

gushing out my heart

barbed-wire pierced

once protected now torn

pulled out with one hand

veins left empty vessels

blood pouring, no beating

Listen Hard

to hear my cries

sobs, and wails of agony

tears so dark

from black mascara

from dark recesses of my soul

run down my face

plain as day

screams so deep

my lungs are crushed

i can't breathe

Listen Hard

to hear nothing

because to you

I was never here

Mr. selective hearing

Feed By M.T. Anderson Book Review

Spending time partying on the moon and riding around in his "upcar," Titus is an average teen of the future, complete with a computer chip implant -- the "Feed" -- that lets corporate marketers and government agencies broadcast directly into his brain. Then Titus meets Violet, and an anti-Feed hacker shuts down their Feeds for a short time; but when Violet's Feed is seriously damaged, she begins spouting some radical ideas.

~Haunted Rose's Review~

I felt that an overwhelming amount of paranormal would ruin my reading habits so I chose a futuristic read by M.T. Anderson. I read his book Thirsty awhile ago and I have to say I hated it. It was about vampires and it had a crappy ending. I would have given that book only 1 Haunted Rose but I'm reviewing Feed not Thirsty so anyway I picked this book of my library's shelf and I thought wow this sounds pretty good. I started the book and I got lost straight away. I couldn't understand half the stuff Titus was saying or what it meant. Don't get me wrong the idea behind the story was genius. A world in the future with upcars, moon trips, computers in our brains and who knows what else captured my attention. The reason this book annoyed me so much was that It was hard to keep up and the story left me hanging. The ending made me want to throw the book at the wall. I wish it would have had more adventure, more of something other than just love gone awry because of this new invention. Feed did get me laughing at a few parts and people stared as I laughed in the middle of a library but the librarian winked so I figured it was ok. If you are more into the futuristic books try this one although I don't recammend this book to people who read paranormal because then its just a downer.

I give it 2 out of 5 Haunted Roses



Tyger, Tyger By Kersten Hamilton Book Review

Teagan Wylltson's best friend, Abby, dreams that horrifying creatures--goblins, shape-shifters, and beings of unearthly beauty but terrible cruelty--are hunting Teagan. Abby is always coming up with crazy stuff, though, so Teagan isn't worried. Her life isn't in danger. In fact, it's perfect. She's on track for a college scholarship. She has a great job. She's focused on school, work, and her future. No boys, no heartaches, no problems.
    Until Finn Mac Cumhaill arrives. Finn's a bit on the unearthly beautiful side himself. He has a killer accent and a knee-weakening smile. And either he's crazy or he's been haunting Abby's dreams, because he's talking about goblins, too . . . and about being The Mac Cumhaill, born to fight all goblin-kind. Finn knows a thing or two about fighting. Which is a very good thing, because this time, Abby's right. The goblins are coming!!!!

~Haunted Rose's Review~

I have to admit I took one look at this book and thought this is going to suck big time. That is called judgeing a book by its cover and I never do that so I decided I would give it a shot. I was bored in the beginning because I thought it was going to turn into a religious freak book but Teagan's monkey friend Cindy captured my attention. Teagan has this perfect plan to do good in school and go to college and nobody can interrupt that plan of hers until Finn moves in. Teagan's parents always tell stories and paint pictures of this goblin universe in their Irish tales but Teagan never believed they truelly existed. Finn moves in and flips Teagan's world upside down and now believes in the cat-sidhe (cat- shee). When one steals her dad from her she is determined to get him back even if she has to go to Mag Mell. There she learns that she has goblin blood and she starts to believe Finn can't love her becuase he is the Mac Cumhail the only goblin hunter. In the end Finn tells her he loves her and thus starts the Goblin Wars. This book was really different and that is why it is one of my favorites. I hardly ever see paranormal books with ban-sidhes in them and if I do I have never seen one where the goblin loves the goblin hunter. There were parts that I could have guessed that happened but there were also ones I was completely surprised. If your tired of reading the same old books but still love the paranormal world I suggest you read this one.

Reasons why I am anxiously awaiting the 2nd book-

Will Finn really love Teagan?Does Cindy the monkey escape the zoo with her lover?Will Teagan fall into the goblin darkside?Why is Thomas growing feathers.. again?What song will Aiden sing next?Will Abby finally believe that goblins are hunting Teagan?Will Lucy eat chocolate until she is a chubby little sprite?I wanna know!!!!!!!!!!!

I give it 4 out of 5 Haunted Roses